This is my first blog. I have been considering one for awhile now, and, well it's as good a time as any.
I am 8 weeks out from having my first baby, and my band Good Lovelies, is taking a some time off for me to take care of business. We've got 3 shows left in August, and then I wait. Well, I prepare (as if I can truly prepare!). In the meantime, I have to buy a bunch of furniture, move, have a couple of baby showers, and learn some breathing techniques to push the little sucker out.
I had wanted to start this blog back in February, when I was stuck in the touring van, smelling other people's food and fighting the nausea of the first trimester. I wanted to write about not being able to share in the post-show bourbon, about my fear of missing out (I have just learned that the kids call this disorder "FOMO"), and about how difficult it was for me to be away from hubby. I've been used to being away from him over the years, but something about incubating made me long for home more than ever. It was a bit of a lonely time, but I felt very superstitious about sharing my pregnancy experiences so early on.
Now, seven months in, I am both excited and nervous about this whole adventure. Not nervous about the delivery part, oddly, but what comes after. About being a Mom, and the choices I will have to make that will affect my babe.
We head out on the road again at the end of November, with a two month old (or less - please don't be late please don't be late) in tow. People often raise their eyebrows when I tell them this. Especially those people who have children and know how all-consuming it is. If they don't tell me outright, it is there lurking in their eyes - they are thinking: Naivety. Craziness. Stupidity. Ha! I'm not denying that this will be an unconventional way to live, with a baby on the road, and I'm prepared to concede that I may be overly optimistic in my ability to manage. But I'm going to try. What other choice is there? (Besides the obvious, which I do not want).
Eventually I would like this blog to be a chronicle of life on the road with baby/kid/kids. I want to share my experiences, as happy and ridiculous and deeply humiliating as they will be. It's been done before, and can be done, I believe, with the right support. In the meantime, I'm going to write weekly about the "journey" (god I hate that word), songwriting, album prep (the GLs release a new album of live recordings in the fall), how I'm feeling, what I'm thinking. I hope it's not too self-indulgent and there's something here for you to enjoy.
At least have a laugh at my expense.
Til next time!
CB
